to someone

don so down la..
cheer up.. =)
everything will be ok..
don so worry.. :)
i'll always here.. ^^
<3

why??

can anyone tell me why i'm so emo recently??
hate myself!!!!
i don wan 2 make ppl feel tat i'm annoying..
i don wan 2 argue..
i don wan 2 be alone..
i know i shouldnt be so selfish..
but in my heart, tat's my feelings!
tat's ME!
i'm an emotional person..
i don wan 2 make u feel tat i'm tie-ing u up..
but..
i dunno how 2 say..
u don wan me like tat n i don wan u like tat..
tat's all i wan 2 say..

forgive me.. mayb i'm not mature enuf..

我……回来了！

人的一生，到底在追求什么？
名？利？金？
有时候真的会觉着人活在世上
真的很累
不停的努力
为的是让未来的生活过得更好
可是
真的很累
不断的努力
很想休息
可是又不能松懈
一旦松懈
就会跟不上脚步
被抛在后头
然后不停的追
回归之前的步伐
回到原点
努力…………

我
总是让人觉得很勤劳、很乖
但其实
我不是
我真的不是！
我本性是懒惰的

对于有些人来说
我的成绩好[其实也不是很好，比上不足比下有余]
但又怎样？
我觉得很压力
得一直保持这样的水平
不然就会给人笑？？
人一旦在高峰
就会很容易滑下来
一旦滑下来
就会给人嘲笑：
怎么她变得这么差了？？？不是成绩很好的吗？？？

所以以前的我
对于成绩非常的耿耿于怀
成绩一不好
眼泪就掉了
有人说：
什么？竟然有人会为了成绩掉眼泪？！
没错！
以前的我确实如此
怕输心理吗？
我不否认
可是如果不是这心态
我也不会去拼

虽然每次旁人都会劝我说：
尽力就好
可是还是会很难过
一直自责
觉得自己做得不够好
也可能是比较心态
让我觉得自己差强人意
然后感觉就很不好受

而现在
不想再过以前那种紧绷的生活了
偶尔也想放纵
偶尔也想疯一疯
自我要求不再那么高了
但是我知道
学业还是不能忽略的
所以还是得顾好它
那毕竟是
我的未来

刚才在巴士上
真的想了很多很多
想到眼泪快掉了
可是压抑着自己
不让自己丢人现眼

现在
感觉好多了 =）
以前的我
又回来了！！！

真的吗？

我真的变了吗？

SICK!!!

already sick for 1 week..
cough n sore throat still haven recover.. T.T
went back on thurs due to some reasons..
pig.. thx for accompanied me back.. ^^ <3
back to kampar today for test..
but i think i did badly for it..
haih..
just pray hard tat de result wont so "ugly"..

ytd n today~

YESTERDAY
ytd din attend MP lecturer..
coz during PM tutorial, i already felt very sick..
headache n my body feel so uncomfortable..
my classmates said i seems like din sleep for a whole night.. ==
then i asked him 2 fetch me back..
i cant stand anymore..
so ponteng class..
then once reached home..
i laid on my bed..
he said i seems like got FEVER..
but i cant feel it.. ==
anyway, i took fever medicine..
then slept till 730pm..
dunno is bcos of tired[already few days sleep late] o sickness..
then aft wake up feel better..
then only start 2 touch my QT..

TODAY
QT test..
i think it's still ok la..
not to say very good..
coz i had a few questions tat i'm not sure abt de answers..
then aft back from exam, dinner, then A Box--cheong K..
just BOTH of us.. :P
but expensive lo!!!
RM 28 per person..
aft added de tax..
RM 32.2 per person..
Red Box also not so expensive lo..
somemore just 8pm-12am.. 4 hrs only.. ==
but anyway, as long as we ENJOYED!!
yea.. we ENJOYED~
actually his singing not bad lo.. hehe
we shouted also.. haha
so de consequence is, my throat is pain now.. ==
actually b4 singing my throat already not feeling well de.. cough..
i was coughing when singing.. sweat..
spoilt de songs.. T.T
now.. keep coughing lo.. =(

2moro parents come.. will go ipoh.. yeah!
*FIO assigns n PM test II.. put them aside 1st.. although i know i shud start them NOW! ==*

惊喜连连~

这个十八岁生日，真的是惊喜连连咯！
从昨晚说起吧。。
housemates给了我很大的惊喜咯！
上篇不是说了那蛋糕毁了吗？
昨晚他们就去买蛋糕给我，买回一模一样的。。
然后十一点的时候[那是在他房间上网，也是被骗去的==]，他们突然唱着生日歌，拿着蛋糕。。
我真的感到意外咯！！！！
终于吃到生日蛋糕了~
真的很感谢你们咯！！
而猪，又再一次的骗了我了。。==

今天，虽然生日过了。。
可是还是有惊喜。。
他跟carrie他们串通好，带我去唱k。。
至于他如何骗我咧。。
他说他今天会跟他的同学去唱k，叫我一起去。。
我就答应咯。。
怎知道去到的时候，是我的同学，不是他的。。 ==
又受骗了。。==
是我笨吗？？？
不过其实我也发现了一些蹊跷的……
只是没说出来而已，我才没那么笨……
装笨而已…… :P
很不好意思咯。。
你们请我唱k，还有蛋糕，还有礼物收……
不好意思呐……
谢谢咯！！

今年的生日，有很多的惊喜和感动……
收到有史以来最多的祝福……

谢谢大家！！
给了我一个难忘的十八岁生日~~

难忘的十八岁生日！！

猪，你很顽皮咯！！
昨天骗了我一整天。。
一直哄我去睡觉。。
说东说西的。。
可是我还是相信你，照你的话去做。。[虽然心里有小小的怀疑]
一直到晚上要到十二点时，就一直叫我去睡。。
我就乖乖去睡咯。。
然后十二点半左右吧。。
听到敲门声。。
我要开门可是开不到。。[cendoi 拉门拉到手很痛吧==]
然后最后开到门了。。
你拿着蛋糕，后面还有一大堆人，唱着生日歌进来。。
我虽然已经有心理准备了[因为我知道你不可能会忘记的:P]。。
可是还是觉得很惊喜。。
很多人。。
整间家的人都为我庆祝。。
这是第一次整间家的人聚在一起。。
还拍了全家福。。哈哈[我的功劳:P]
回归正题。。
猪叫我出去切蛋糕什么的。。
然后又叫我去ck的房间开门。。
我知道里面一定有东西的。。
很好奇，很期待。。
一开门。。
我真的很感动。。
只是没泪水。。[我知道对于这你很失望，你以为我会哭。。可是我就是没眼泪嘛。。太开心了！]
十八根蜡烛排成一个心型。。
很美~~
中间还放了大家给我的卡片。。
你的礼物在中间。。
我真的，感动到不知说什么好。。
我一直捂着嘴。。
因为真的。。。。。感动~
之后我得把蜡烛一根一根的吹完。。
可是最后还是因为不小心吹熄两根而被罚唱歌[哪有人生日被罚的？？]。。
然后就许愿吹蜡烛[蛋糕]。。
你们竟然要我咬蜡烛。。T.T
然后J先生竟然。。竟然按我的头！！！
猪买给我的蛋糕就这样毁了！！！！！
我还变成花猫！！
猪，我知道你知道我喜欢tiramisu而故意买给我的，可是。。。。。。
我知道你很失望，因为我没吃到蛋糕。。最后还得收拾残局。。
不过我真的很开心，很感动。。
我知道你一定策划很久了。。
猪，昨晚很漂亮~~
虽然有小小遗憾，可是我还是很高兴。。
我看到你对我的用心。。
我知道你对我的真心。。
谢谢你给我的惊喜。。
谢谢你给我一个终生难忘的十八岁生日。。
我爱你~

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a crazy night

ytd was a crazy crazy night..
HIS classmate's 21st b'day..
then i went also..
ast 21st[de restaurant name].. ==
then aft tat..
de most interesting part..
they played wif CREAM n FLOUR!!!!
omg...
i din kena cream..
but FLOUR!!!!
i became white ghost~
then keep on pouring FLOUR on me..
omg!!! [JUSTIN, i'll remember tat~ :P]
my hair, my black shirt..
all WHITE!!
de gals r SCREAMING n SHOUTING!!..
it was around 1-2am d.. [even carrie-who stayed there, can also heard our SCREAMs!]
de floor were white..
even the cars n motors there..
all KENA!!!
SORRY to de owners..
but.. we were CRAZY!!! haha
HE even worse..
BEER + FLOUR + WATER!!!!
yuckyyyyyyyyy~~~~
then 230am went home..
BATH!!!!
washed hairs..
it's so hard 2 wash la..
somemore bcos of run, sweating..
so de flour were sticky.. like "tangyuan".. ==
then de clothes..
i washed it today...
so so so HARD to clean de flour..
i think i used abt 30mins to wash them..
then too tired..
today's class was 12pm..
i woke up at 1130am..
luckily still din late.. :P

REALLY A CRAZY NIGHT!!!
DE MOST CRAZY THINGS TAT I'VE DONE SO FAR!!!
PLAYED WIF FLOUR!!!
BUT IT'S FUN!!!
ANOTHER UNFORGETABLE MEMORY IN MY LIFE~~
[mayb many ppl played with it b4.. but it's a 1st time for me.. another 1st time.. XD]

a night before test

i just posted a post abt busy..
but today.. no.. shud be ytd.. ==
ate steamboat+bbq wif housemates+his classmates at de restaurant near TESCO there..
lots of fun there..
till 11pm..
after tat..
went for snooker.. hehe
1st time playing snooker..
he taught me..
but i'm so stupid..
keep on missed de ball..
aiks..
12am reached home..
took bath again..
now..
study lo..
quite scare of TODAY's test..
but i can predict tat i cant score it well..
coz dunno wat's de lecture slides abt..
just.....
try my best lo..
all de best.. my frens.. =)

busy...

a "BUSY" post again..
just finished FAF presentation today..
praised by tutor.. =)
so now left 2 more assigns 2 go..
tis time sure last minute work.. =(
have no enuf time..
n now busy wif de mid term tests..
coming one by one.. T.T
busy busy busy~~

TRANSFORMER n ICE AGE!!

today..
woke up at abt 11 sth..
coz i abt 5am only slept..
WHY??
i went 2 watch ICE AGE 3 wif him classmates..
de movie was 930pm-1130pm..
quite nice..
but aft tat..
went OLD TOWN WHITE COFFEE yum cha..
chat chat chat..
till abt 2am..
then went McD for de 2nd round..
chat chat n chat again..
till 4am..
reached home at 430am..
then abt 5am only can sleep..
TIRED lo!!!
actually we tot aft watching movie then come back d de..
then still can study a bit..
mana tau they wan2 go yum cha..
somemore 2 rounds..
as wat he said 人在车中，身不由己..
so.. just follow lo..
then thurs nite went to watch TRANSFORMER 2..
nice movie..
then aft tat went yum cha also..
abt 3am reached home..

OMG!!!
these 2 nights din study at all!!!
my ASSIGNMENTS, TESTS, TUTORIALS!!!!
luckily i've studied microecons[2moro's test]..
so.. have 2 rush now..
bye bye~